Last night I watched Titanic. Kesian ah; nada keraja lain lagi. I felt weird yesterday; I felt different. It wansn't like any other day I've gone through ever since I came here. I kept assuming the worst I could possibly ever imagine, however, knowing in advance that I'm wrong. I just knew that whatever that was going through my head, none of them really mattered. It's not him; it's me. I'm my own problem. At that point, I thought to myself, if it's not him that I can have at that moment, then it's Baileys. It's not hard liquor; I just need liquor, you know. But then I fel bad for all the things I said to him. I know I've been cranky for the past couple of months; yes, he knows why. Making a huge deal from tiny mistakes you make; at least what I thought you did was wrong. It's just the distance that's screwing me over. I really miss him. As of today, I have six more days to go. I know it's not long before I leave Hanoi but I miss him. I can't wait any longer. Everything turns out great whenever he's around.

After hearing his voice, I've realized that I don't need anything else. It's just him that I really need. I'm not saying he wasn't what I needed in the first place, it's just that I don't need an alternate to make me happy. He's enough. You make me happy. So, I don't need Baileys after all. Macam inda pedah kan my story ah. Basically, point is that I fucking miss him; I can't wait to taste his lips and to feel the warmth of his touch all over again. Iloveyou baby and I'm so sorry.