So I have this image of myself, when I get a car, I'll be buying a can of Ginger Beer and a pack of Pall Mall, green. I don't know, I see myself buying just those two things everytime I'd be in need of cigarettes. And no, I haven't quit... it's too hard. Plus, all the shit that's been happening these days is making it harder for me to quit. Gosh, I'm in desperate needs of ciggies right now. I mean NOW! What's really bothering me? One thing is the cut on my feet, just above my toe. Okay, it might look like a small cut but I'm the type of person who don't handle pain very well. I can barely walk, fucking painful. Glad it's the holidays though. If it weren't the holidays, then I'd be more, how you say "kusut" cause I wouldn't be able to go to school. Not excited for the studies but for Judin. I miss him, I think that's the reason for these pimples on my face, the other thing that's bothering me. Anyways, the holiday so far... been bored to my ass crack, doing nothing: just sitting around and killing time. Don't eat as much either cause I get so tired just to go downstairs and get something to eat. If it wasn't for the injury then I wouldn't mind going up and down the stairs. Again, don't wanna make a big deal out of it but it hurts so much.