The Last Kiss Tasted Like Tobacco... (Friday, January 25, 2008 / 12:09 AM)
so my mom found out i smoke. i dont get what the big deal is. uuufff. i felt bad though when she was crying... i couldnt say a word, i felt like hugging her but i couldnt, cause yeah... we're not that kinda family. it would be awkward if i just went up to her and hugged her, i bet she'll slap me as an instant reaction. huh. she was telling me and my sister to stop smoking, but stressed it more on me.
"kau nur, jangan tah ko macam setaie. jangan tah ko besigup lagi. jantung mu atu bukannya sehat, dari damit sudah kau ani bepenyakit."
-momster-
yeah, i think i should stop cause of what she said. i mean i never really thought about it. at times i feel that its affecting me and i cant move much; i have to lay down. i think the smoking is really making it worst, but i just dont realize it. huh, wtf am i talking about? anyways, i tried to quit, but i just cant. its so damn hard. i dont know what the fuck to do anymore... i didnt wanna think about it anymore, well at least for now. so i drank earlier today. felt good :]
